in hell love

in hell there is

peace no violence

upon this land

before the stars

come shining

looking broken

twice not to be

hurt full one

before you wanted

stays in in her

room he does not mind

she took her time.

a look

each look meant nothing to me

you screamed at me they say

let go of the past the scars

i used to count the patience

i have lost the scars is not to me

through the years is not tired

and restless from the world closing my eyes

again the enemy is what's her name

drives me insane so i just walk away

before the sun comes down tommorrow will be the

same.

what my life is

how is life is it fine

does the tree grow

with its own mind

i put down the drink

its a distant memory

... like a smoke does not

help the body a new year

a new start where angels

fly into a new sky that

is brighter each time

and the winding wind

and the sweet rising sun

when hearts stop breaking

and we learn we are as one

a race of people who will not give

up a new love returns to my heart.

for as we shine into our lives we

stand tall we will not let lifes

probelms bring us down .

gone

sorry to much shit going o0n can't even \relax.

enjoy

guns and roses - estranged

burn me like a ghost

take me where no

one goes why am

who cares

suns burns

super nowhere let it

go for good all the

lies people say to

make people someone

else closing the door closed

up the mind thoughtless

games deranged  twisted

thoughts try to go  not

to far push the triger

or look the other way

paranoid bipolar infected

with the lost touch

burning fingers on

fire coming no time
to grieve he took

the needle till

end the pain .

korn song

heres another song

"Chaos Lives In Everything"

Coming onto you
The hell you got me through
What would I have to do to kiss that frown
I know whats wrong with you
That fucked up part of you
Is gonna bury me under ground

Now I'm awake
Been stuck in a place I really hate
And it's not fate
Everything's just fine

So why must it be
Chaos Lives in Everything
Trapped inside a dream
It all comes back to me

Get away from you
Is what I gotta do
I want my soul back, I'll stand my ground
So walk away from me
You know this has to be
Another way for me to kiss that frown

And it's not fate
Everything's just fine

So why must it be
Chaos Lives in Everything
Trapped inside a dream
It all comes back to me
Now I'm guilty, not ashamed
Got this thing attached to me, throw it all away
It just comes back to me

Gonna take you
Gonna break you
Gonna rape you, fuck you bitch, frown
Sometimes I worry
Sometimes I'm sorry
Sometimes I just want to beat you down
Gonna take you
Gonna break you
Gonna rape you, fuck you bitch, frown
Sometimes I worry
Sometimes I'm sorry
Sometimes I just want to kiss that frown

I'm insane but now you gotta give it up to me
Life is wearing thin
My only pleasure is watching you give in
I tried
To pretend
All it got me was nothing in the end
I tried
To win
All it got me was nothing in the end

So why must it be
Chaos Lives in Everything
Trapped inside a dream
It all comes back to me
Now I'm guilty, not ashamed
Got this thing attached to me, throw it all away
It just comes back to me
It just comes back to me
It just comes back to me

my view on nine inch nails''right where it belongs''

when trent reznor was
writing right where
it belongs he was thinking
of like nothing matters
anymore but also feeling
stuck and alone i can also
add that he feels like he
is a ghost and doesn't feel
what is right in his heart
but he is saying in this song
which i relate to alot because
i'm in my own little world
and i find it hard to cope
with reality just the way it is
like sometimes i feel
invisible or i just keep running
from the past all i can say about
right where it belongs still
puts a tear to my eyes.

nin- right where it belongs

"Right Where It Belongs"

See the animal in his cage that you built
Are you sure what side you're on?
Better not look him too closely in the eye
Are you sure what side of the glass you are on?
See the safety of the life you have built
Everything where it belongs
Feel the hollowness inside of your heart
And it's all
Right where it belongs

[Chorus:]
What if everything around you
Isn't quite as it seems?
What if all the world you think you know
Is an elaborate dream?
And if you look at your reflection
Is it all you want it to be?
What if you could look right through the cracks?
Would you find yourself
Find yourself afraid to see?

What if all the world's inside of your head
Just creations of your own?
Your devils and your gods
All the living and the dead
And you're really all alone?
You can live in this illusion
You can choose to believe
You keep looking but you can't find the woods
While you're hiding in the trees

[Chorus:]
What if everything around you
Isn't quite as it seems?
What if all the world you used to know
Is an elaborate dream?
And if you look at your reflection
Is it all you want it to be?
What if you could look right through the cracks
Would you find yourself
Find yourself afraid to see?

One, two, one, two, three, four
(whistle)
Shed a tear 'cause I'm missin' you
I'm still alright to smile
Girl, I think bout you every day now
Was a time when I wasn't sure
But you set my mind at ease
There is no doubt you're in my heart now

Said woman take it slow, and it'll work itself out fine
All we need is just a little patience
Said sugar take it slow and we'll come together fine
All we need is just a little patience
(patience)
Mmmm, yeah

I sit here on the stairs
'Cause I'd rather be alone
If I can't have you right now I'll wait dear
Sometimes I get so tense but I can't speed up the time
But you know love there's one more thing to consider

Said woman take it slow and it'll work itself out fine
You and I'll just use a little patience
Said sugar take the time cause the lights are shining bright
You and I've got what it takes to make it
We won't fake it, I'll never break it
'Cause I can't take it

(whistle)
Little patience, mmm yeah, mm yeah
Need a little patience, yeah
Just a little patience, yeah
Some more patience, yeah
Could use some patience, yeah
Gotta have some patience, yeah
All it takes is patience
Just a little patience
Is all you need (background vocals)

I've been walking the streets at night
Just trying to get it right
Its hard to see with so many around
You know I don't like being stuck in the crowd
And the streets don't change
But maybe the names
I ain't got time for the game cause I need you
Yeah, yeah, yeah, 'cause I need you
Ooo I need you, whoa I need you
Ooooh, all this time

lovers in in love lane

                        
Imagine the rawness of it all
The time we shared, the sweet smell
Of love cascading through our minds.
Remember the rapture
The beauty we had to stop
But could never end…never end.
Feel the lightness of my touch
The instant the bumps rise
and the echoes of your moans
Fill the space around us
I am silent for I am there
Where you want me to be.
Mouth full, heart rearing down
You scream in holy ecstasy
A prayer that sings a holy praise.
You…me…we…
Forever entangled in this moment
The beads of our sweat mix
Becoming one full salty sea
As our sanded shorelines melt
And merge into one splendid Eden.
Whisper in my ear my Love
Ah, that voice that curls my toes
And makes my hands grab all sorts of things
Scratch me, mark me, make me yours
In the way that says we were here
Worshiping in this place we call home
A place that isn’t truly a place at all
But a description of all we live to be.
And all we ever where.
Finally the release I surely wanted to delay
The moment this Universe was created
The moment all time and space began
We walked together through the sand
Paused to watch the Sunrise
And called this place our Home.
I never want to leave this place
Can’t we stay here just another lifetime more?
We will surely meet again my Lover
When I call out your name and remember
This, our moment of Divinity
Against that, our moment of humanity.
Together we have journeyed beyond Earth’s surly bounds
And walked into a Lightness of Being no mind could dare create.
We are Love, We are Lovers still.
~~~

anti- bullying.

read the eyes

watch for the

signs take a

breath of fresh

air before you

do something you regret

no ones gonna hurt you

you're too strong to

let them get to

don't listen them you'll

be fine see now

you know the truth

find me around to

wipe your tears

away you will be okay so hold on.

cage

like a gun

let us dance

the days are

flying away

come with me my

dear where love

is so sweet a little sour

but we can fix that

it hurts i know

holding on to a dead

rose that i got for you

real love is hard

come along see the light

watch it shine in your eyes i see

mine.

soft melody

let it fly

through the night

say goodbye

breaking bones

there i go fallen

for you when

ever i'm angry

you make me happy

i just want to be

proud all the

beauty is around you

you pick me up of dust

a fallen tree some new

dreams friday is laughing

watch the sunset rise

the comes up the moon.

here's the lyrics to an alice in chains

what i want to learn

things i want to learn about

i want to learn about a lot of

new subjects i like to be challenge

maybe some more math and science and i like to read out loud in class more

i like to do more topics

of history of the world

and people .

my christmas 2012

my christmas

a lot was going on and i got to see my family

then came the probelm became a deep

painful secret came out of me of me

it was that i was being abused at the

and that was at my own home

the people there so i had to go

my worker and i told him whats

going on and everything that

happened plus the house was

getting to me alot i just couldn't

stand it anymore so as unlucky

i am sometimes i nto another

home it was hard it was

at home it was hard at first

but besides all the crazy stuff

that went on i stuck to my guns

to move on from from it i focused

all my energy on helping people

but at the time my best friend jamie died

of cancer he was only 53 years old

at this funeral i cried  my eyes out

it was so hard to get over it

the best present i got was

kind i was happy but the best gift

i got was true happiness

when the snow came i was happy

and i went for a walk a couple

walks cause i always got my best friend

my mp3 player  i treat it like gold

but through it all i had a good christmas.